I've come to think about the unseen things that God provides for us. Yes, there are many tangible things that God has provided for our family. God has seen us through negative bank balances, broken down cars, no-health-insurance-and-I'm-pregnant, late charges, empty cupboards, job losses, where-are-we-gonna-live moments, and the list could go on. I honestly don't doubt His provision after seeing his hand give the things we need time and time again.
But what about the things we can't see? Do I trust God to provide in ways that are spiritual, mental, or emotional vacancies in my life? I've come to realize that this is something I need to trust God to provide. His provision is so much more than food and shelter. God will provide- even the things I can't see. He will give me sanity when I feel insane. Energy when I have none. He will give me clarity when I'm laced with confusion- like when I can't seem to recall the word "breakfast burrito." True story. Do I trust God to give strength when I'm overwhelmed with tiredness and weakness? To help me feel stable when I start to feel frazzled?
What are you up against- emotionally? Bring it to God and ask for his provision. Trust that He will provide for the unseen battles in your mind. It would change our battles and the way we fight them to go to the Word of God and believe what it says. Sometimes the mental algorithm of covering up dark thoughts with better thoughts doesn't always work. Sometimes constant reminders simply run out of their effectiveness. Sometimes you cannot think your way out of emotional distress or rationalize why the way you are feeling is not truth. Sometimes emotional and mental battles call for repentance. Fill in the blank: It is a sin my heart to not trust God with __________________________. Repent, ask for forgiveness. Forgiveness for trying to figure out a way on your own and not trusting God to provide. Then rest in His grace. I need grace heaped upon grace to enter my mind and my emotions to bring true sanity, peace, patience, and love in my life.
The familiar hymn rings through my thoughts:
'Twas grace that taught my heart to fear,
And grace my fears relieved.
How precious did that grace appear
The hour I first believed.
Through many dangers, toils and snares
I have already come;
'Tis grace has brought me safe thus far
And grace will lead me home.
The Lord has promised good to me
His word my hope secures;
He will my shield and portion be,
As long as life endures.
When we can grasp how big God is, I don't believe we will doubt him for a minute. We won't doubt his ability to provide things that are seen- or unseen. We will see him as bigger than anything we can deal with on Earth, because in truth, he holds the earth, and my brain and my heart and my emotions, in his hand.